to no one.

this is the blog where i just type. there's no one to answer my questions, nor no one to explain life. i just need to put it out there. i'm not crazy, i swear. just scared. sometimes i just want answers. my thoughts on 'paper.'

why is life backwards?
shouldn't it be the other way around.
great, i'm an only child. i have all the responsibility.
all i can do is listen.
it breaks my heart because i can't help.
when did our roles change.
she deserves the world
and ive given her a lot.
how much more is right.
i can't give in to giving up
because even though she's close,
she won't either.
but it scares everything out of me.
im pretty sure that
for 4 years,
i've had no emotion.
i've lost it all since we lost it all.
i've made changes. she's tried.
is it time yet?
i can't listen anymore.
now what.